autumn

autumn... the season when the leaves fall leaving it's branches..

that's what i'm trying to do.. 

"O Allah, forgive all my sins..like the falling leaves leaving the good ones"

"O Allah, let me have a brand new life..the life where i can submit everything for You,JUST for You,the Almighty God"

indeed i am just a slave of Yours but honestly i always forgot that i'm one of Your slave.. because You always grant my wish..

...ALWAYS...
no matter how bad i am..i commit so many sins yet You always show Your mercy..and You've never disappoint us,Your slaves.. 

sometimes i feel so ashamed to ask anything from You because 

i'm not that pious, i'm bad.. i got so many sins.. 

but i know, You're the most merciful.. 

ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku seorang hamba yang sangatlah hina..

aku sangat sangat bersyukur di atas segala nikmat yang telah Engkau beri kepadaku.. siapalah aku di mata Engkau ya Allah?

namun aku ingin sekali dekat padaMu..

seberapa banyak pun syukurku hanyalah setitis daripada nikmatMu..

berikanlah hidayahMu padaku dan keluargaku ya Allah..

aku benar benar ingin merasakannya.. 

keagungan hidayahMu... 

jadikan aku orang yang dikenali oleh penduduk langitMu.. 

aku tidak ingin untuk dikenali di duniaMu ini kerana sesungguhnya tiada apa yang lebih gembira daripada dikenali olehMu,ya Allah...

aku ingin menjadi umat Nabi Muhammad Sallallahu 'Alayhi Wassallam..

umat yg sebenar-benar umat... 

graffiti ku.. :)

 

 

any comment/comments are much appreciated.. :)

Muhammad Sallallahu 'Alayhi Wassallam

"ummati..ummati....." T_T

Muhammad Sallallahu 'alayhi wassallam..

 
marilah kita berselawat ke atas junjungan mulia 
Nabi Muhammad Sallallahu 'alayhi Wassallam..
nabi Muhammad sallallahu 'alayhi wassallam gembira apabila diberitakan
oleh Allah.. siapa yang berselawat ke atas nabi, mereka akan mndapat ganjaran daripada Allah.. nabi gembira kerana umatnya yg berselawat kepadanya akan mndapat ganjaran dan pertolongan di akhirat nnt..

sifat pemimpin yg sebenar...
 

ya Allah... T_T
Nabi Muhammad sallallahu 'alayhi wassallam merindui kita..
siapalah kita untuk dirindui oleh kekasih Allah? tapi lihatlah 
kasih sayang nabi kepada kita.. 
Nabi Muhammad sallallahu 'alayhi wassallam rindu kita, kenapa kita 
sikit pun tiada perasan rindu tersebut? renung2kanlah.. 
cintai Rasulullah Sallallahu 'Alayhi Wassallam.. 

HIJRAH

 hijrahku

as an ordinary young girl, i've done lots of stuff that brings me to the life that i never thought that i would stuck in..

what kind of life is it? it's not that bad but somehow the life that making me

so far away from Allah.. i don't know what i was thinking at that time.. 

i became somebody that i don't even understand myself.. i'm not sure

who am i? i was so confused and messed up.. like really messed up.. 

i know what i've done was wrong but i denied it.. i felt so stupid.. i was lost

in my own thoughts.. 

the start of my hijrah was when i was attending DPMZ punye program.. 

program KHALIFAH.. sambutan aidiladha.. they were talking about TADHIYAH and HIJRAH.. these two magic words had change my life...

PENGORBANAN dan PERPINDAHAN...

dalam program tu diterangkan mengenai definition and details pasal two 

magical words ni..perkataan ni lah yg telah menyedarkan aku tentang apa yg telah aku lakukan selama ni.. menjawab persoalan mcm mana aku begitu jauh dgn Allah,my Lord... then i took my first step... 

aku doa "ya Allah,mudahkan jalan aku untuk meneruskan penghijrahanku dan pengorbananku" in every prayer.. Alhamdulillah the outcome is something that is sooo beautiful that i just can't describe it in words.. 

if before this, i cried over silly things like fighting with my ex.. and i wasn't really aware what was happening in my family.. i did but not really did.. i was lost in my fake world... but Alhamdulillah, Allah had open my heart to realized what are my priorities as a muslim.. lepas tu baru aku realize that i have a great responsibility to my family.. BIG one,man! how can i forget that? T_T

what a jerk i was before... lepas tu aku start cari2 kat you tube.. and Nouman Ali Khan punya video helps a lot along with Ustaz Azhar Idrus.. 

sebab aku punya basic ni tak cekang sgt.. nk kne tmbh2 gok le.. 

pahtu ustaz kt sini pun ade gok yg menambah2 ilmu aku.. 

baru aku sedar betapa bertuah nya aku duduk di bumi Mesir ni.. time 1st year, 2nd year dulu aku sangat2 lah jahil dan sangat2lah tak suka peraturan kat sini. honestly! SANGATlah tak suka.. i was like "ishh..ni tak boleh, tu tak boleh"

but now i knew.. why yg tak boleh tu.. ada sebab2nya.. aku tak celik lagi time tu.. ntah apa la yg mengaburi aku time tu.. aku tak get along well dgn seniors, juniors.. even batch sendiri kdg2.. but now.. look who am i? Alhamdulillah, with Allah's will.. He helped me through this path i'm taking.. ALHAMDULILLAH!! aku sangat2 bersyukur pada Allah..aku dah boleh get along ngn diorang quite well..pastu my dressing.. sekarang lain sikit la.. insyaAllah step by step.. ya Allah, i love you! Allah always grant my du'a.. drpd sekecil2 doa.. ada hari tu aku duk kat balcony nak tgk awan... mcm biase la.. aku punya hobi mmg cmtu kan.. haha.. pastu dalam hati ni "subhanAllah.. betapa agungnya ciptaanMu.. i wonder how the clouds were made.. kan best kalau boleh nmpk nama Allah kat awan ni" Allahurabbi.... mmg ade awan berkalimah "Allah" kat langit hari tu..!! Alhamdulillah aku sempat snap pic tu.. 1st time aku tgk live! Allah.. Allah...

aku harap sangat2 aku diberi hidayah oleh Allah dan aku harap 

perubahan aku tak berhenti setakat ini.. 

i wanna be better.. a better muslim.. 

i need your guidance ya Allah... guide along the 

path of righteousness.. ameen! 

kawan-kawan, please make du'a for me and for all of us so that Allah ease our way to be the people of JANNAH! ameen ya rabbal 'alameen.. 

 ALLAH :)