as an ordinary young girl, i've done lots of stuff that brings me to the life that i never thought that i would stuck in..
what kind of life is it? it's not that bad but somehow the life that making me
so far away from Allah.. i don't know what i was thinking at that time..
i became somebody that i don't even understand myself.. i'm not sure
who am i? i was so confused and messed up.. like really messed up..
i know what i've done was wrong but i denied it.. i felt so stupid.. i was lost
in my own thoughts..
the start of my hijrah was when i was attending DPMZ punye program..
program KHALIFAH.. sambutan aidiladha.. they were talking about TADHIYAH and HIJRAH.. these two magic words had change my life...
PENGORBANAN dan PERPINDAHAN...
dalam program tu diterangkan mengenai definition and details pasal two
magical words ni..perkataan ni lah yg telah menyedarkan aku tentang apa yg telah aku lakukan selama ni.. menjawab persoalan mcm mana aku begitu jauh dgn Allah,my Lord... then i took my first step...
aku doa "ya Allah,mudahkan jalan aku untuk meneruskan penghijrahanku dan pengorbananku" in every prayer.. Alhamdulillah the outcome is something that is sooo beautiful that i just can't describe it in words..
if before this, i cried over silly things like fighting with my ex.. and i wasn't really aware what was happening in my family.. i did but not really did.. i was lost in my fake world... but Alhamdulillah, Allah had open my heart to realized what are my priorities as a muslim.. lepas tu baru aku realize that i have a great responsibility to my family.. BIG one,man! how can i forget that? T_T
what a jerk i was before... lepas tu aku start cari2 kat you tube.. and Nouman Ali Khan punya video helps a lot along with Ustaz Azhar Idrus..
sebab aku punya basic ni tak cekang sgt.. nk kne tmbh2 gok le..
pahtu ustaz kt sini pun ade gok yg menambah2 ilmu aku..
baru aku sedar betapa bertuah nya aku duduk di bumi Mesir ni.. time 1st year, 2nd year dulu aku sangat2 lah jahil dan sangat2lah tak suka peraturan kat sini. honestly! SANGATlah tak suka.. i was like "ishh..ni tak boleh, tu tak boleh"
but now i knew.. why yg tak boleh tu.. ada sebab2nya.. aku tak celik lagi time tu.. ntah apa la yg mengaburi aku time tu.. aku tak get along well dgn seniors, juniors.. even batch sendiri kdg2.. but now.. look who am i? Alhamdulillah, with Allah's will.. He helped me through this path i'm taking.. ALHAMDULILLAH!! aku sangat2 bersyukur pada Allah..aku dah boleh get along ngn diorang quite well..pastu my dressing.. sekarang lain sikit la.. insyaAllah step by step.. ya Allah, i love you! Allah always grant my du'a.. drpd sekecil2 doa.. ada hari tu aku duk kat balcony nak tgk awan... mcm biase la.. aku punya hobi mmg cmtu kan.. haha.. pastu dalam hati ni "subhanAllah.. betapa agungnya ciptaanMu.. i wonder how the clouds were made.. kan best kalau boleh nmpk nama Allah kat awan ni" Allahurabbi.... mmg ade awan berkalimah "Allah" kat langit hari tu..!! Alhamdulillah aku sempat snap pic tu.. 1st time aku tgk live! Allah.. Allah...
aku harap sangat2 aku diberi hidayah oleh Allah dan aku harap
perubahan aku tak berhenti setakat ini..
i wanna be better.. a better muslim..
i need your guidance ya Allah... guide along the
path of righteousness.. ameen!
kawan-kawan, please make du'a for me and for all of us so that Allah ease our way to be the people of JANNAH! ameen ya rabbal 'alameen..