autumn

autumn... the season when the leaves fall leaving it's branches..

that's what i'm trying to do.. 

"O Allah, forgive all my sins..like the falling leaves leaving the good ones"

"O Allah, let me have a brand new life..the life where i can submit everything for You,JUST for You,the Almighty God"

indeed i am just a slave of Yours but honestly i always forgot that i'm one of Your slave.. because You always grant my wish..

...ALWAYS...
no matter how bad i am..i commit so many sins yet You always show Your mercy..and You've never disappoint us,Your slaves.. 

sometimes i feel so ashamed to ask anything from You because 

i'm not that pious, i'm bad.. i got so many sins.. 

but i know, You're the most merciful.. 

ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku seorang hamba yang sangatlah hina..

aku sangat sangat bersyukur di atas segala nikmat yang telah Engkau beri kepadaku.. siapalah aku di mata Engkau ya Allah?

namun aku ingin sekali dekat padaMu..

seberapa banyak pun syukurku hanyalah setitis daripada nikmatMu..

berikanlah hidayahMu padaku dan keluargaku ya Allah..

aku benar benar ingin merasakannya.. 

keagungan hidayahMu... 

jadikan aku orang yang dikenali oleh penduduk langitMu.. 

aku tidak ingin untuk dikenali di duniaMu ini kerana sesungguhnya tiada apa yang lebih gembira daripada dikenali olehMu,ya Allah...

aku ingin menjadi umat Nabi Muhammad Sallallahu 'Alayhi Wassallam..

umat yg sebenar-benar umat... 

graffiti ku.. :)

 

 

any comment/comments are much appreciated.. :)

Muhammad Sallallahu 'Alayhi Wassallam

"ummati..ummati....." T_T

Muhammad Sallallahu 'alayhi wassallam..

 
marilah kita berselawat ke atas junjungan mulia 
Nabi Muhammad Sallallahu 'alayhi Wassallam..
nabi Muhammad sallallahu 'alayhi wassallam gembira apabila diberitakan
oleh Allah.. siapa yang berselawat ke atas nabi, mereka akan mndapat ganjaran daripada Allah.. nabi gembira kerana umatnya yg berselawat kepadanya akan mndapat ganjaran dan pertolongan di akhirat nnt..

sifat pemimpin yg sebenar...
 

ya Allah... T_T
Nabi Muhammad sallallahu 'alayhi wassallam merindui kita..
siapalah kita untuk dirindui oleh kekasih Allah? tapi lihatlah 
kasih sayang nabi kepada kita.. 
Nabi Muhammad sallallahu 'alayhi wassallam rindu kita, kenapa kita 
sikit pun tiada perasan rindu tersebut? renung2kanlah.. 
cintai Rasulullah Sallallahu 'Alayhi Wassallam.. 

HIJRAH

 hijrahku

as an ordinary young girl, i've done lots of stuff that brings me to the life that i never thought that i would stuck in..

what kind of life is it? it's not that bad but somehow the life that making me

so far away from Allah.. i don't know what i was thinking at that time.. 

i became somebody that i don't even understand myself.. i'm not sure

who am i? i was so confused and messed up.. like really messed up.. 

i know what i've done was wrong but i denied it.. i felt so stupid.. i was lost

in my own thoughts.. 

the start of my hijrah was when i was attending DPMZ punye program.. 

program KHALIFAH.. sambutan aidiladha.. they were talking about TADHIYAH and HIJRAH.. these two magic words had change my life...

PENGORBANAN dan PERPINDAHAN...

dalam program tu diterangkan mengenai definition and details pasal two 

magical words ni..perkataan ni lah yg telah menyedarkan aku tentang apa yg telah aku lakukan selama ni.. menjawab persoalan mcm mana aku begitu jauh dgn Allah,my Lord... then i took my first step... 

aku doa "ya Allah,mudahkan jalan aku untuk meneruskan penghijrahanku dan pengorbananku" in every prayer.. Alhamdulillah the outcome is something that is sooo beautiful that i just can't describe it in words.. 

if before this, i cried over silly things like fighting with my ex.. and i wasn't really aware what was happening in my family.. i did but not really did.. i was lost in my fake world... but Alhamdulillah, Allah had open my heart to realized what are my priorities as a muslim.. lepas tu baru aku realize that i have a great responsibility to my family.. BIG one,man! how can i forget that? T_T

what a jerk i was before... lepas tu aku start cari2 kat you tube.. and Nouman Ali Khan punya video helps a lot along with Ustaz Azhar Idrus.. 

sebab aku punya basic ni tak cekang sgt.. nk kne tmbh2 gok le.. 

pahtu ustaz kt sini pun ade gok yg menambah2 ilmu aku.. 

baru aku sedar betapa bertuah nya aku duduk di bumi Mesir ni.. time 1st year, 2nd year dulu aku sangat2 lah jahil dan sangat2lah tak suka peraturan kat sini. honestly! SANGATlah tak suka.. i was like "ishh..ni tak boleh, tu tak boleh"

but now i knew.. why yg tak boleh tu.. ada sebab2nya.. aku tak celik lagi time tu.. ntah apa la yg mengaburi aku time tu.. aku tak get along well dgn seniors, juniors.. even batch sendiri kdg2.. but now.. look who am i? Alhamdulillah, with Allah's will.. He helped me through this path i'm taking.. ALHAMDULILLAH!! aku sangat2 bersyukur pada Allah..aku dah boleh get along ngn diorang quite well..pastu my dressing.. sekarang lain sikit la.. insyaAllah step by step.. ya Allah, i love you! Allah always grant my du'a.. drpd sekecil2 doa.. ada hari tu aku duk kat balcony nak tgk awan... mcm biase la.. aku punya hobi mmg cmtu kan.. haha.. pastu dalam hati ni "subhanAllah.. betapa agungnya ciptaanMu.. i wonder how the clouds were made.. kan best kalau boleh nmpk nama Allah kat awan ni" Allahurabbi.... mmg ade awan berkalimah "Allah" kat langit hari tu..!! Alhamdulillah aku sempat snap pic tu.. 1st time aku tgk live! Allah.. Allah...

aku harap sangat2 aku diberi hidayah oleh Allah dan aku harap 

perubahan aku tak berhenti setakat ini.. 

i wanna be better.. a better muslim.. 

i need your guidance ya Allah... guide along the 

path of righteousness.. ameen! 

kawan-kawan, please make du'a for me and for all of us so that Allah ease our way to be the people of JANNAH! ameen ya rabbal 'alameen.. 

 ALLAH :)

home made brownies

..home made brownies..

well.. this is how it looks like..

topped with icing sugar :)

i just love baking!! :)

j-pop malaysia? what the heck!

honestly.. this is a piece of junk! 

A JUNK!! what the heck she was thinking about laa??

lepas k-pop gula-gula tu.. j-pop pulak dah? tolongla..

kalau lagu elok sikit pastu pakai elok2 sikit xpe la jugak..

ni?? this is sooooooo lame..!!  dah lame..

budget comel lak tu! aku yg x blajar bahase jepun pun tau ayat

kau tu dah salah makcik oi! 

the lyrics are way too stupid.. xbole buat lagu ohh..!!

tolonglah jangan masuk radio lagu ni..!!

kalau masuk mmg aku rase mcm nak sepak2 je sape

yg promote tuh.. adik oii.. kau pegi buat spm betul2 dulu la..

xyah la buat pelik2 ni.. haisshh.. 

"comelnya handset ku ini" nanges cikgu BM kau wehhh.. ayoo.. -_-"

p/s: aku ni mmg anti k-pop.. tp aku lagi anti bende2 fake mcm ni la.. malu malaysia

 wehh.. "sokong industri music malaysia" mcm mane nak sokong kalau lagu mcm ni 

pun bole exist? 

my family :)

mak n baba!! :)

handsome kan baba? mak pun cun! :D

nmpk muda dari umur tau..hehe.. :P

i love mak n baba soooooooo muchh!! they are my life! :)

meet acap,mak and adik.. *macam adik x? more like my kakak

kan? hehehe.. :P*

mak ngn adik.. :) *adik..muka adik dah macam tiger kat 
blakang tu la... SEBIJIK!*hahaha

father and son.. :) same x muke? hehe..
i miss them sooooo mucchh! :(

ni acap.. da tggi sekarang.. yg belakang tu aku tak tau..
menyibuk je nak pose jugak..ntah sape2 ntah.. haha

ni adik.. hahaha.. lawak la pic ni sbb muka adik sama
ngn harimau tu la..AAUUMM2..!! *LOL*

pic ni comel.. that 'tiger' seems to like you la mak.. hehe.. :P

baba n tiger! baba mcm sheriff la.. hehe.. :P 

i like this picture! mcm sheriff tangkap budak hoppers.. hehe.. :P
tp comel lah baba ngn acap! :)

ni abg yun dan abg cah.. coolest bro in the world! :D

ni pulak kak yong (kakak iparku) dgn afiq.. :)

waahh.. adam handsome ohh..!! ;)

ni mmg comel sangat2..!! meet afiq isyraf..!! peminat setia
astro ceria dan sgt pandai posing budak ni.. :P

ni part of our family jugak.. ni motor aku.. eh! sah2 la bukan..
haha.. ni motor ayah aku..

ha..ni gambar full..smart kan?? masked rider pun nanges tgk

motor ni tau.. hehehe.. :P

p/s: i love all of you sooo muchh!!! i miss you guys a lot..!! :(

beautiful sceneries

this scenery shows my feeling right now.. :(

scenery ni sgt cantik.. nak lukis la nnt.. kan best kalau ade 

poster color.. 

this picture describe loneliness.. 

cantik sangat.. i like those shadows..

perfect..!!

this is my favorite..  

sunset..i love looking at the sunset..

i cried when i look at this picture.. :'(

looking at this beautiful scenery.. i understand why

daughtry chose 'tennessee line'..

MR.BRAIN

okeh.. this is one of my favorite japanese drama! 

drama ni sangat3 best! pelakon2 drama ni pun yg famous2!!

starring..TAKUYA KIMURA!!..MIZUSHIMA HIRO!! 2 org ni la pelakon yg paling 

aku minat sangat2! selain drpd ARASHI la.. pastu ade guest, KAMENASHI..

haa..yg ni Ada minat gile.. aku xsuke sgt KAME tu.. hehe.. seriously..

TAKUYA KIMURA really2 suits that role..i mean as MR.BRAIN..

he is a good actor..and he's very good in entertaining people even in

an interview.. aku suke cite jepun sgt sbb ade message yg nak disampaikan

utk penonton..korea aku x minat la.. wekk! kecuali full house ngn 

sassy girl.. hehe.. yg lain mmg aku x layan la.. xbestla.. 

mcm typical sgt..kalau jepun ni lain sikit..cite jepun bnyk

pasal kehidupan la..x smstinye love mcm mostly cite korea..

oh..yea back to MR.BRAIN,cite ni cite mahal la sbb diorang buat kat IPS..

kalau tgk teknologi diorang.... PERGGGHH..!! gile maju laaa..!!

dlm cite ni mmg betul2 tunjuk diorang punye teknologi la.. 

MR.BRAIN terbaek!! :D

kipas oh kipas 2

waaahh..alhamdulillah...!! dah ade kipas..! yayy..!! :D 

kipas ni harge dy LE180.. murah wehh.. bg aku murah la sbb aku

budget msti LE200 lebih punye.. alhamdulillah..boleh la aku tido 

dgn tenang hari ni tnpa gangguan nyamuk.. ahaah! yay!!

aku tgh ngadap kipas skrg ni..sedapnye angin kipas ni..

mak,baba, thanks! :D oh! and thanks to athirah ruduan sbb teman aku
pegi beli kipas ni.. hontouni arigatou!! :)

kipas oh kipas..

kipas..!!! aku nak kipas!! susahla mcm ni.. mlm2 xbole tido maa..

dgn panas nye.. nyamuk tu la yg paling x boleh tahan.. sgt ramai yg

asyik attack aku je.. smlm lps subuh dlm pukul 4 cmtu baru aku boleh tido..

kalau hari2 mcm ni.. jadi panda lah aku nnt..huhu.. masalahnye skrg,

aku nak pegi beli..tp susah nak ajak org teman.. mcm susahkn diorang pulak sbb

dah nak exam kan..ade ke yg nak teman?? -__-"

kalau pegi sorang2 mahattoh tu..baba x bg pulak kluar sorang2.. sbb bahaya..

aku pun x bpe berani la sbnrnye..hehe.. hurmm..nak tggu lps anatomy ke?

oh! no..no..no..!aku kene pegi jugak esok! yosshh!!

tp smlm tu aku xbole tido sbb pk mcm2 jugak.. cuak pulak dengar cite kwn

aku mlm sebelumnye tu.. teringat2 pulak aku..dah la mlm tu kitorang

asyik tgk cite hantu.. shutter ngn coming soon.. haa..

tula.. sape suruh gatal sgt tgk mlm2..haha

budak comel..

okay.. i love kids.. really2 love them..kalau jumpe budak comel2 main

mesti aku rase mcm nak bg coklat ke ice cream kat dorang.. pastu tadi

waktu balik dari kedai, aku jumpe la x silap aku abang aya..yusuf kalau

x silap aku la name budak tu.. comel gile2!! pastu aku senyum2 la kat dy..

*buat muke comel la kononnye* pastu dy pun ikut aku.. wahh.. x sangke

pulak taktik "muke comel" aku jadi..haha.. disebabkan budak tu sangat comel

dari aku.. aku pun cair laa.. aku bg la ice cream yg aku beli kat kdai baba

yasser tadi kat budak tuh.. pastu aku tgk dia mcm nak makan tp xtau bukak..

aku pun pegi kat dia pastu nak tlg dia bukak.. tetibe.. atuk dia nmpak pulak..

adoii..kantoi la aku bg ice cream! pastu atuk dia ckp "syukran2" ingtkn dia 

xkesa aku bg kat cucu dia ice cream tu.. pastu skali dia suruh aku amek balik

daaa.. adoii.. budak tu muke nak nangis dah.. kesiannye dia.. atuk dia

suruh dia masuk rumah pulak tu.. aku rase cm bsalah pun ade.. mesti budak 

tu x suke aku da pasni.. huwwwaaa....!! :(

epimag

EPIMAG effervescent granules

contents: magnesium citrate

side effects:-

cardiac arrest

confusion

dehydration

diaphoresis

diarrhea

drowsiness

flushing

hypermagnesemia

hyporeflexia

nausea/vomiting

respiratory arrest

respiratory depression

skin irritation

weakness p/s: bapak cuak la aku bace ni.. nasib baik la side effect ubat ni ade 1 je yg aku rase.. yg lain tu..nauzubillah la... (-__-)"

hari STRESS!!

i hate it when it comes to this seriously..!!

man!!! everybody was like "aaarghh!! x abes lg bace!"

"ape yg nak masuk ni?" "kalau kuar soalan ni mcm mane??"

A,"function of thyroid hormone ape?" B,"errr..alamakk! x ingtla.. dah bace dahh!!"

darn it!! i can't take this! this is stressful.. i mean.. REALLY..!

i was hoping that there's miracles during exam.. insyaAllah..

takut x ingt ape yg dah dibace.. huhu.. :(

mcm mane ni... takut gile dah nii..

nasib baik la aku ade blog.. because you know..

nobody listens.. everybody was like.."kau ni..at least kau dah abes bace..!!"

"elleh..kau msti bole punye.." or ".........." 

i think i'm gonna need some rest... (-.-)"

scream my heart out!!!!

aaaaaarrrggghhhhh!!!! i wanna scream my lungs ouuuttttt...!!!!

man!! i'm stressed out!! ni yg malas ni kalau nk2 exam tu

mcm ni la jadinye.. everything doesn't seems right..

seriously!! i can't hold this feelings anymore..

wish i can scream my heart out.. :O

kalau kat maktab dulu boleh la jogging sorang2 bile stress..

tp kat sini?? jgn harap laaaa...

sediiiihhhhnyee..!! :'(

:'(

peeps, don't read my blog.. because it was all about me and that is sssoooo lame..

and it mostly brings sadness rather than happiness.. that's not a good thing anyway..

nouman ali khan

how to control your anger??

ability to speak is a gift from Allah..

subhanallah!

don't even say "uff.." to your parents..

masyaAllah..this guy is really great in his brief speech.. 

may Allah bless him.. Allah's mercy is sooo great.. subhanallah!

gloomy weather

weather can express it's feelings  

this painting shows gloomy feeling of a person..

it's a very beautiful art..

weather can express its feelings.. subhanallah..